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When the dark clouds loom
It’s been a while since I felt this way. By “this way”, I mean walking around numb with no interest in doing / watching and reading anything. It’s that kind of state where you’d rather crawl into bed and sleep for days. You know the kind… or maybe you don’t. Anyway, it’s not much fun […]
The art of letting go
Posted on February 9, 2022 Leave a Comment
Following a post I did a while back on acceptance with dignity, I wanted to revisit this, particularly focusing on the letting go part. It’s a hard thing letting go; whether it be of a person, thing, place, memory or something someone has said to hurt you. Letting go is probably one of the most […]
Fighting to be heard
Posted on December 7, 2021 Leave a Comment
There are often times when I feel that I try so hard to be seen, to be heard, to be understood and ultimately, what tends to happen instead is that my words or actions end up pissing people off. I know it’s not my duty to make people understand me or get my struggles, but […]
Dancing with suicide
Posted on October 15, 2021 1 Comment
There are often times when I find myself wishing I was dead and had never been born. These times are more frequent than they used to be and strike me with such vengeance that I often find myself questioning how I’m still standing after all this time. Suicide for me has never been idealised and […]
My anxiety is not something I put on when the shoe fits
Posted on October 14, 2021 Leave a Comment
I’m sick and tired of being made to feel that my anxiety is a show, something that comes and goes when I will it. If anything, it’s far from that. The cloud of anxiety and depression always hangs around regardless of what I am doing and despite how well put together my life looks at […]
Just because my pain isn’t visible, it doesn’t mean it’s not there.
Posted on August 25, 2021 Leave a Comment
I’m tired of people not taking me seriously and by me, I mean my pain, my journey and the suffering I’ve endured throughout my life. I don’t need pity or sympathy, instead what I’d like is to be heard. Often, it can feel like I’m banging against a glass jar – trapped in intense pain […]
“But you were fine yesterday?”
Posted on July 6, 2021 Leave a Comment
I can’t count the number of times people have showed their ignorance when trying to support someone who’s struggling with mental health. Whether it’s been a comment said to me directly – or to my friends – I find it shocking that mental health is still one of the most poorly understood diseases globally. We’re […]
Yes, the stigma around mental health has reduced – but it’s still there.
Posted on March 18, 2021 1 Comment
Over the years, I’ve come to realise that not everyone ‘gets’ mental health nor fully understands the impact it can have on someone’s life and their ability to see things in a ‘functional’ way. I use the word ‘functional’ mainly due to the way in which we are told to describe ourselves in a 12-Step […]
Acceptance with dignity
Posted on January 7, 2021 Leave a Comment
Given everything that went on in the United States yesterday, I feel it’s appropriate to share with you some thoughts about a topic I’ve wanted to talk about for a while – acceptance. Specifically, acceptance of: what was; what is and what will be. You see, the thing about acceptance is that it’s pretty much […]
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